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caterpillar sickness
03:51
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listening to a siren's song of nothing
blanket blocking the light that the dams won't
flood if I let them to break open
the left side of my face already drowned
I want to turn onto my right side
fully clothed laying in my shoes
Tired all the time, unless I'm sleeping
I'd say goodbye if I had someone to
I want to learn how to stay in tempo
too self conscious to read my own lines
no mom here to tell me my room's messy
Bedsheet white lies, saying I was fine
don't have to take showers
reply to my moms texts from yesterday
waste time eating or sleeping
not like I do those things anyway
there's one too many people like me on this planet
brushing bleeding cavities everyday
taking medicine every morning
not like I do those things anyway
used to waking up exhausted four hours later
wishing my nightmares would never stop
trying to escape what I'm feeling and thinking
don't want anymore feelings or thoughts
who cares about if it's sleep or if I'm burning
burning my bridges with existance, going under
should have got the bottle with the namebrand
every source of stress put to eternal slumber
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2. |
no sign of butterflies
00:44
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I have no one.
I have nothing.
I am no one.
I am nothing.
I have no one.
I have nothing.
I am no one.
I am nothing.
I am no one.
I am nothing.
I am no one.
I am nothing.
I am nothing.
I am nothing.
I am nothing.
I am nothing.
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everything is a cycle
05:07
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Used to be six months, for you I weekly change my jeans
Sounds like washing hands, water from the sink
Don't brush my hair'r, teeth fr'others honey
you are the reason I do a few pushups monthly
I hope no girls kiss me, lips are chapped and bloody
Is she superficial or will she like me cause I'm funny
You make my heart vibrate and we'd make a decent team
Hope you feel the same as in my nightly dreams.
Moved into the same room, parents residence
Every night on our Twin liquid evidence
Wake at 5 rooted in our phone and sheets
Imbibing everyday re-meeting in our sleep
Used to change yearly, for you, my boxers every season
Faucet on, sounds like I'm washing, you're the reason.
Don't wash my clothes or body fr'others, honey
you are the reason I lift these dumbbells monthly
Can I tell you something important... in a little bit?
don't change your mind like every other time
waiting for a verb... but all we do is sit
it's just that I... nevermind
It could just be a freudian... oral fixation
I see her biting her lips like she's thinking of mine
Tapping feet to a beat... like she's impatient
I should have been able to see the hearts in her eyes
Pick her up, I'm informed... how dearly I was missed
Hanging at home, wish we were there alone
Interrupted my goodbye... with a goodbye kiss
Maybe a clue the pheremones might be requited
No guardians home... a place no one but us could see
So we went forward, at least physically
Ghost in the Shell... we were each other's three
Her feelings for me remain a mystery
She asked, how much... um... do you like me?
My mind and heart count the ballots for its one party election
Melting on her shoes... a bit red and slimy
Gathering the strength to ask her a question
hey, can I tell you something... in a little bit?
what is it, you change your mind every time
gathering all my strength to... unzip my sealed lips
it's just that I... nevermind
Staring at the starry sky
always forever was always both of our... wishes
That's how I knew she'd... give it a second try
we made it to Thanksgiving, next up is... Christmas
My friends say her words... mean nothing at all
Just cause the timing of when she... said them
I saw your love, I saw the paintings... spinning in the hall
Heard the same from what you wrote... months ago
Didn't need to kiss in public, it's fine... if we have to hide it
We knew each other, hearts hidden behind your... eyelids
It's cute how you keep all... of your feelings private
Learned to hear her words in... silence
No replies from her, is something wrong with her number or her phone?
With her new friend she passed right by me, and me alone
I'm not stupid, you'll try to lie... to yourself to free me
But can I go with you if you leave me?
(At my party feeling lonely with my girlfriend
Just take a nap until I turn twenty
I'm sorry for trapping you
I'm so sorry
I'm stupid for thinking we could be fo-e-rever
I'm so sorry for trapping you
I don't want you to leave me
But I'll completely understand)
transparent bandaids over vessels of red wine
eternal covenants you only meant for a short time
Don't let my wounds heal not feeling very real
We should just love each other like we're not made of steel.
Can't take showers anymore remind me too much of our dates
I weigh a hundred pounds I'll lose a hundred more at this current rate.
I'm almost enough even if my attempts used to just fall flat
I'm seven out of ten,,, you know it can't get any much better than that.
You were my wish, one that didn't come true
You didn't get that I loved you, like, I fucking lo
waiting for interest before they retract
the girls that loved me, didn't love me back
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4. |
and I will
01:09
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FUCK YOU
BURN IN HELL
YOU WORTHLESS LITTLE WHORE OF A CUMDUMPSTER SACK OF SHIT
FUCKING ASS PATHETIC SLUT CUNT PUSSY UGLY MOTHERFUCKER
Bitch
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5. |
see you
03:18
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Sword and shield of your name,
Broken record, we'll never part
debt repaid with sharks interest,
by attacking your gifted heart
by attacking your gifted heart
by attacking your gifted heart
by attacking my tiny heart
Heart attack, heart attack
Heart attack, heart attack
I had a fulltime temporary abuser
You had a chance to court a musical loser
Have your CDG shoes and grandmothers diamond ring
You have four-forty of my dollars, score for SAT
You asked me to love you long as I can
An actor without character or fans
Addicted to friend's Lorazepam, Lizdexamphetamine
Square holepunch dimensions, a few eternities of me
Heart attack, heart attack
Heart attack, heart attack
Hundred miles every weekend just to see me pissed off
Tell me "next time don't stop 'til you cut your wrist off"
Day your cardiac's detained, day I finally grin
As you're forgotten by all, except your CollegeBoard login
Heart attack, heart attack
Heart attack, heart attack
Every party throw up blacking out in front of others
Speaking down on your only friend excluding your mother
there should be a "Report User" system in real life
You act apathetic, you're just a pathetic, uh, I don't know
Heart attack, heart attack
Heart attack, heart attack
You fucked me, so fuck you
bang a with off end the starting party year's new
Hoard the bottles of liquid courage, for our anxiety
While I loosen up, she'll keep her sobriety
Surprised that the girl from my high school came
Didn't recognize her at first, doesn't look the same
Awkward and quiet, smiles so gay
Only opened to agree with everything I say
Want to go to my car? She answered with my own question
Right in front of the house, parked in the closest section
having a hard time, forced to make a correction
in a last ditch effort I take off my protection
Heart attack, heart attack
Heart attack, heart attack
a soft duet of airy free verse singing
she ignores her phone's incessant on and off ringing
Seeing steamy windows, someone checks the car's condition
Runs away wailing, haunted by an apparition
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6. |
once again
02:32
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want to grasp someone something close
self conscious think people laughing wth me
self conscious think people laughing at me I look stupid I like this self exposing
can't talk really well self conscious laugh at myself feel a little lonely when I laugh I think people laughing with me then not, when the laughs do happen feel I laugh too long miss you guys thought about what you guys doing get lomely started off great 9:48 feeling more bad than good lonely,
midnight
would pay anything to have you with
sad missing you sleep
115 everything my nails makes me thing
148 I'm good if I don't think about anything
204 almost got sad thought of if I went to the concert
216 I need god I don't think people notice what I'm going thru
407 lots of avoiding thinking
441 watching dream Corp LLC feeling fine I need to be happy with myself and I can be
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but for now
02:14
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You're everything to me, I can't live without you
can't stand when you're gone, always want to be round you
Everything around me makes me think about you
I should have never let go of you, soon as I found you
Your song's my only song, just want smiles from you
I wish to be friends, my wishes won't come true
Want you to want me to want you like I want you
Don't you get that I lo
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8. |
goodbye
02:39
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Crying the hardest I have cried in my life
By far the single best night in my life
What did I do to deserve this
Finally feeling life's purpose
Crying the hardest I have cried in my life
Let me go back to that night in my life
What did I do to deserve this
So fucking pathetic and worthless
Immobilized, ensnared by moments faded
Unable to return, your scent has dissipated
Never saw a reason to get rid of the pyre
Thankful for our former flame, now burned by the fire
I just get so cold
and I get so tired
I should feel a bit frigid in this pitch black snowstorm
but your itchy black jacket keeps my body so warm
tiny seashells play your voice volume ten on repeat
static and moving pictures that I neglected to delete
doodles and letters made for me takes away the terror
Escaping the blizzard by putting on your apparel
Returning back to the peak of our lifetime
Shielding me from harm, your ring as my lifeline
My own mother left before I was born, try faking your own birth.
When I die it's going to be in the papers, for whatever that's worth.
what do I need to die for I'm already a skeleton my ghost girl haunts me
We're in the flashback right now, all the things that could have been, taunt me
robots don't need heat
the ghost is blawd you
there's a draoon behno your sweet
manmee is the swo
outside of time eternally
no one can lie to us anymore
seven different types of your warmth
Heat in the cold beats the cool in the warm
And I am made of sunshine and golden light
And I will feel this way forever
And I will feel this way always
And I will feel this way forever... again
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